I awake and all I can think of was being at peace with God. I feel like my
faith has been renewed. Okay, well at least for today. Everyday I get up
looking for a phone call from a love interest but this time was different. This
time I woke up with purpose and the Holy Spirit reminded me that I'm living to
see today for that purpose. I enjoy the little things like showering and being
able to go to work. When you have nothing going on I guess the small things
matter. In reality they are huge blessings that I take advantage of!
On the way to work, Christ speaks to me, "I want you to fast". There is purpose in those small still voices from God. Reluctant to the idea, here I am. Its 11:05 am with no food since 10:00 pm last night. My body is starved but I know when I am fasting something is still filling me. I'm reminded that the fullness that Christ gives doesn't give fulfillment in bread alone but through the very power in the word of God. (Matt 4:4) Living feels full and filled because God spoke wisdom in this young life. I can't doubt what I'm trying to hear from God at this point in my life so instead of thinking about food I quiet my hunger. I walk and He leads.
I go into prayer at my desk. Interesting enough I didn't plan to pray just at that moment but I did. (When no one is watching.) Minutes later Christ gives me a scripture that fills my spirit with so much truth that no doubtful, lonely thought can challenge. There I am on Google searching for the scripture that came to mind: Joshua 1:5. It resonates: No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. I read this and even though it means no enemy will be able to defeat you, I think of any man that will ever come into my life whether friend or foe. Whether husband or ex...NO man will stand with me ALL my life. No one will be by my side through everything forever. Even if He/she is there for 10 years..people still come and go. People change. Even if they stand they may not stand tall. Not like God will. If this is true, shouldn't I give people room to be themselves, mess up and be at fault or should I fight them as if those 10 years of commitment hasn't gained them rights to failing? My truth for today...SO hard to practice.
I always want to trust man and everyone that come into my life. (Even myself) I always want to believe that they will be with me always but isn't that being oblivious to the pains of life? Even with the "good" people. This sounds bad...its like at some point expect a man to misuse you (to abuse), expect your friends to screw you over and for businesses to cheat you out of your hard earned money. I won't dare to live in such world where I'm a pessimist! Life has been too great to miss that my flaws force my life to flourish (At all), that my pains in life has made me appreciate my (presents) and that my God has used every failed opportunity in my sin to show me that He is alive and ready to rescue me. I've never heard a Man say that he will "never leave me or forsake me". Those are words worth putting on the wall and remembering during even your darkest hour...in battle with man.
My spirit is quiet and I'm so thankful! I just need peace for the day and this time I won't ruin "lonely". We have God, the Almighty God who will "never leave us or forsake us" so that we will feel complete in those moments when men aren't there to please our every need. So that we don't misunderstand what went wrong in an argument we had with someone by expecting them to be in agreement with us. Our negative thoughts are shattered because to practice faith in God doesn't take our jobs to be over. It doesn't take a compliment to the things we lack nor does it always take a broken situation. We can choose right NOW that we're going to rely on God so that when issues arise we're not ready to battle but rather "full" in battle.
On the way to work, Christ speaks to me, "I want you to fast". There is purpose in those small still voices from God. Reluctant to the idea, here I am. Its 11:05 am with no food since 10:00 pm last night. My body is starved but I know when I am fasting something is still filling me. I'm reminded that the fullness that Christ gives doesn't give fulfillment in bread alone but through the very power in the word of God. (Matt 4:4) Living feels full and filled because God spoke wisdom in this young life. I can't doubt what I'm trying to hear from God at this point in my life so instead of thinking about food I quiet my hunger. I walk and He leads.
I go into prayer at my desk. Interesting enough I didn't plan to pray just at that moment but I did. (When no one is watching.) Minutes later Christ gives me a scripture that fills my spirit with so much truth that no doubtful, lonely thought can challenge. There I am on Google searching for the scripture that came to mind: Joshua 1:5. It resonates: No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. I read this and even though it means no enemy will be able to defeat you, I think of any man that will ever come into my life whether friend or foe. Whether husband or ex...NO man will stand with me ALL my life. No one will be by my side through everything forever. Even if He/she is there for 10 years..people still come and go. People change. Even if they stand they may not stand tall. Not like God will. If this is true, shouldn't I give people room to be themselves, mess up and be at fault or should I fight them as if those 10 years of commitment hasn't gained them rights to failing? My truth for today...SO hard to practice.
I always want to trust man and everyone that come into my life. (Even myself) I always want to believe that they will be with me always but isn't that being oblivious to the pains of life? Even with the "good" people. This sounds bad...its like at some point expect a man to misuse you (to abuse), expect your friends to screw you over and for businesses to cheat you out of your hard earned money. I won't dare to live in such world where I'm a pessimist! Life has been too great to miss that my flaws force my life to flourish (At all), that my pains in life has made me appreciate my (presents) and that my God has used every failed opportunity in my sin to show me that He is alive and ready to rescue me. I've never heard a Man say that he will "never leave me or forsake me". Those are words worth putting on the wall and remembering during even your darkest hour...in battle with man.
My spirit is quiet and I'm so thankful! I just need peace for the day and this time I won't ruin "lonely". We have God, the Almighty God who will "never leave us or forsake us" so that we will feel complete in those moments when men aren't there to please our every need. So that we don't misunderstand what went wrong in an argument we had with someone by expecting them to be in agreement with us. Our negative thoughts are shattered because to practice faith in God doesn't take our jobs to be over. It doesn't take a compliment to the things we lack nor does it always take a broken situation. We can choose right NOW that we're going to rely on God so that when issues arise we're not ready to battle but rather "full" in battle.
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